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its scary to think about the way the post digital world has highlighted just how easily every thing can become a variable that can be modified at any moment . we have been outpaced so many times already by our own creations . we have made pipes to hold cables that will last longer than the people who patented it . the people who assembled its materials . the people who put it together and the people who used it . it can withstand every thing we cant .

and its something to very easily feel cynical about right . losing that incredible humanity we probably had when we had t o pump water out of the well than to take it out of these oppressive awful water fountains at the mall . but one thing i think michael mann has captured perfectly across his filmography is just . machinery . being everywhere . the cities are tinted with fumes that come out of the machines that fuel it . there is so much fog and cars and loud sudden gunshots every where . and its overwhelming . but he has never lost sight on beauty . even with the reality that the digital camera brought to art

to use a digital camera is to get closer to reality than any other kind of camera . it is the type that is widely available to any consumer . one of the main criticisms about its use in films like 28 days later and this and the wave of found footage was the way in which it resembled too much of what was familiar to us . indicating a lower quality . the camera was this incredible tool to make us see things we could not see before . and now it is being used to shoot blurry interpolated footage of a festival jakarta . i suppose it was disappointing for people to see other parts of the world be so grounded . to be connected with others far away from us and to find out they have also had the function of the machine implanted into their minds . every thing is melting into every thing else

now that i am holding hands with other people using a keyboard and mouse . its weird to think about how we only just now realized the constant documentation of every single thing and how modifiable it is . the banks have always existed . trade disputes mandated global conflicts before our grandparents were even born . its just all too clear now . its such a human thing to tell each other about the problems we have always had and to think its the fault of the glasses we are wearing to read about them . and i regret typing that last sentence because it implies . i . the person typing this up . feels negative about the reaction to digital the world at large has had . but i feel a sense of hope knowing that i wouldve never felt as close to others who i value so deeply now more than at any point in history . the narrative is the same . yet somehow . a possibility to subvert it is illuminated through the will of humanity to preserve itself .

the only thing we have to do is like . make the guy who thinks hes ing like . that pdf . actually our keylogger . its a really cool trick a lot of hackers use do .. did u know that . u can read up about it on the internet . its really cool . those idiots gave us the tools to take them down and they dont even know it ! they think the human result is cynicism ! my god ! how could they !!!!!

maintaining a story is hard . to look upon a horizon and declare there is no ending in sight to the material you can mine out of the land . but . it did make sense for this very specific universe to not definitively end . after all these are adaptations of a lineage of art that goes on forever . questioning and folding in on itself to maintain an edge . the world doesnt revolve around tony stark or steve rogers right ? they were just . two players in a larger chessboard . it wouldnt make sense .

spider man is the most recognizable character of them all . children and adults love him and every thing he stands up for . giving the concept of being scrappy a loveable face . the mcu has made spiderman a child . if there is anything that is clear about this franchise . is that spider man is a child who is going through high school and having incredible disney channel escapades with his funny sidekick and the interesting love interest . and i am so for disney channel escapades . big fan of those . peter parker was a child that got chosen by tech millionare tony stark as a meat shield in a political conflict between the biggest and most powerful people on earth .

but i mean .. the mcu doesnt usually question this stuff right ? tony starks inherent power in intelligence never came into question . sometimes things happen for the fun of it . which is weird . because it makes this films repeated hints at a doubt of its franchise martyr become more and more nonsensical . this ultimate force of good who gave everything away for earth to go back to the way it was . the ultimate sacrifice from the most honorable hero . murals of him decorating the streets . why question him now ? why does he have disgruntled workers ? why does the film make a point to have the one antagonistic force be remarkable in his egoism ? . somehow highlighting the idea that these other workers never even thought of the idea of being above iron man . the unspeakable sin this villain commits ..

these ideas would be commendable . to complicate the idea of spider man's supposed responsibility . how it is a little fucked up to give a child access to drone weapons or to invite a child into the avengers . but i mean . you know what im going to say . its nothing . it leads to nothing . there is no emptier feeling than the one solitary shot of a mysterious figure . presumably another Evil Former Worker Of Tony Stark preparing to become The Real Mysterio . yet this is a special brand of nothing . not only because of the way it purposefully builds up the possibility of doubt but by the way it just believes you to have a blindness to any . questions . to dismiss the idea of a mistake being made by the old statesmen of the MCU . now dead . to fill in the blanks as to whats supposed to happen now . and to maintain the beliefs that were hammered into you from the beginning of all of this ..

where do we go now ? i just watched a 2 hour and 30 minute thing that was only denial . a bare brushing of the idea of Spider Man gaining that responsibility he needs to have . our perfect martyr has caused is problems . post death . something is broken now and there is no way to fix it . how can something perfect crawl back from the dead and show us the malignant cells hidden inside its skin and yet continue to be perfect . unquestionably good . The Marvel Cinematic Universe Will Continue To Look For A Way Out . But There Is None

Watched on Wednesday June 4, 2025.

the best thing you can ever do is die

what really matters is bringing the story to a satisfying conclusion . our heroes have served their purpose and they need to rest forever now . bring retribution to the masses at any costs . when we attack the people who hurt us and it brings us nothing . its time to invest in the impossible . because there is no way to move forward . the only way through is back .

has the same vibe as when ur parents get divorced and are trying to make you happy right after you hear the news . a weird ission that the mechanics of this universe are too incomprehensible and jumbled up to really advance anymore . regressing into the same simple 2008 spirit that the phase 1 movies embodied in which every complication introduced by the last few . . . . 20 movies . .. . ough . . . has been turned back . tony stark was right in being afraid . sacrifice is the only way to cleanse a soul . and women generally deserve to die !

theres a lot of fascinating dissonance here . every character just suddenly seems to know theyre going to die soon and act that way . its all crushed under this being one of the worst looking movies ever made though . like most outlines of an interesting idea in the MCU . a lot is sacrificed . not only to be conventional . but to not deal with the possibility that this pure heroism doesnt exist . for a franchise that has always strived to ground these larger than life characters . its supposed ending achieves being both cynical and just . overwhelmingly and annoyingly blind to any doubts about any of this . its usually good when something does thatt . but it feels like it is constantly chasing itself down . and it is exhausting . i am exhausted of these being the faces on my screen .

during the scene in which there is a short weightless fight between two captain americas . a supposed rare joy that this movie SUPPOSEDLY Endulges in i kinda just . stared at chris evans' face . and realized i kinda dont know this character . this is a tv show and i dont really know much about the main character . and i just continued to be weirded out by his face . because he was the face of movies . captain america is one of the most well known characters and . hes just a train of good . that only does good things . and is the most knowledgeable and good person . and so is tony stark . and they are both about to die . and i kinda just felt nothing about it .

i sometimes lie to my friends about how i Wasnt Actually That Excited about the MCU during its financial peak but . i really was ! i was in a midnight screening for endgame cheering for whenever a callback happened . but i vividly just . not really caring for robert downey jr looking so lost and dead on the big screen . he was just a tower to me . a constant that was about to be blown up because the more he was kept alive the more doubt there would be in him . but there really isnt anything productive u can say to a corpse . and if these movies are anything . they are productive

something very disturbing about the way every one kinda just unquestionably went along with everything happening here . not only in of the general population but the idea that marvel made a movie in which a brainwashed soldier realizes a racist fascistic alien military brainwashed her into killing alien refugees who refused to give up their land to them and ends up ending that fascistic alien military . all while wearing the colors of the United States Air Force and having the alien refugees look as inhuman as possible .

the real juicy stuff with the mcu trying to make any kind of statement begins here . while most stuff staring people who can kick really good usually likes to take the libertarian stance of Good People Should Do Good Things Unrestrained By That Dang Government . the optics whispered upon the machine . that women and minorities were actually good . and while black panther was a sign of this whisper . i feel like captain marvel really is the institution trying to bomb itself .

its a strange feeling to know there is just no explanation as to what was in the brains of anyone involved in the conception and execution of this film along with the idea of its usefulness to a greater core . seemingly attempting to make a crumbling world expand out into something that can be explored later on . the world apparently doesnt revolve around the avengers . an incredible statement to make after 23 movies of the world revolving around the avengers . and the war is a lie . an incredible statement to make after 100 thousand movies telling us the war isnt a lie

feels as big and obvious as looking up at the sun . still in disbelief something as operatic as this did what it ended up doing .

sinning as an ideal of breaking away from any and all status quo . freedom is a momentary thing that means the world to all of those who experience it for even just a moment . its sad to know that as an artist you only get incredibly few chances to commune with the infinite even with the knowledge you'll eventually belong to it .

i personally the backlash to the new mutants being characterized by its role in the larger x-men universe and the way it first mysteriously presented itself to us . disappeared and then reappeared in this supposedly mangled deeply flawed and cut down state . it committed the crime of not contributing anything in a landscape in which every film needed to be useful and at the very least coherent enough to fit into a greater whole . it was a movie that didnt contribute so it got dumped into cinemas and forgotten about pretty much immediately .

when you are a wild animal . the more you get away from the idea of being valuable . the more you are forced to question the purpose you were supposed to have . you ask yourself why you were minimized in this ecosystem you were forced to inhabit and the tasks you were meant to complete and the more your inherent uselessness becomes clearer . maybe somewhere in your beginning there was some sort of goal you were destined to achieve but that is certainly gone . its hard being a teenager . and maybe its ok to just exist for the sake of it and scream about how useless you ended up being . there really isnt a rule that says you cant do that . maybe itll mean something to someone

Watched on Wednesday May 28, 2025.

Watched on Monday May 19, 2025.

its weird that the biggest franchise ever of all time only really knew how to write two kinds of women up to this point . there was a real attempt here to make a film that is watched but . nevertheless . san francisco looks like the san francisco you see between tv shows rather than the one u see in the tv shows themselves .

theres a real tenderness here that i cant really ignore ! i deeply love scott lang as the first guy in the mcu who i wouldnt be afraid to be around because i dont know if hes profiling me in some way or another . i think he wouldnt do that honestly . the cops hate him ! i root for these movies in a weird way where i just want them to be ok . being the one and only response to the grand revenge fight going on elsewhere . there is something nice about the way these people continuously forgive each other for legitimately fucking up . i guess its good to forget the world is ending for a little bit to that what actually matters is defying house arrest to steal stuff and make ur kid proud

even in norman rockwell paintings . the all consuming machine will make itself clear . it is embodying a violence that has been made obvious for the rest of eternity . to protect the whole and to know the other that stains this perfect tapestry is to know that the line is more of a declaration you make than a reality you inherit . cronenberg acknowledges the infection is for every person to share under the table . not just the outsider

dad is coming home from work and mom is making us dinner so we should sit down

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failure is something ive been thinking about recently . i see myself as one and i see my current conditions to be representative of the idea of utterly and completely failing . the thing about failure is that it has an implication of it being an ending . the wall that stops a path from reaching its expected goals . and the thing about life is that it never really stops

i mean we all came from something that came from something that came from something without really having an ending point . sure there is death but there is the text written about the death and there are the eternal final moments and the things affected by the being that is now supposedly over . every dream supposedly ends even if it injects something into us apparently . the thing about depression is that it makes you think there is some definitive truth to the world and finality is something it relies on so desperately . to think so much is worthless because of the pain implied in it or the way it will end .

zack snyder really has never been satisfied by finality . u would know as much if uve seen t he snyder cut . despite everything crumbling there is always some sort of future that comes tomorrow . the sun always rises and thats all that matters . its a part of that dumb guy matter of fact charm thats been culturally assigned to him . and its really helped me . there is nothing that brings me more hope than someone adding a but to a piece of art that faces death and finality and says no in the way most superhero stories do .

i believe there is something that truly stuck with me and infected me the night i watched sucker punch in the same way i was infected by something that keeps me in bed for a lot of the day and makes my dreams unbareable a few months ago . sucker punch is the most finite snyder movie . no sequel hook OR sequel and unbearably angsty in its aesthetics and the nature of its story . it interrupts itself and in some part plays into that finality and establishes the reality that is never truly faced in a lot of movies . complete and utter destruction is coming . sometimes things are unfair . and people learn to enact true evil and empowerment is a ridiculous fantasy that cannot be achieved in a world in which you can be deemed a complete failure . and there is no way out of that .
and in response . it still answers by leaving a trail of insufferably self indulgent scene after the next letting a dying dream live on scream . immortalized forever . time always counting down yet it being something thats still worth going through . and its going to keep my alive for who knows how long which does seem like an implication of limited time but . that time is worth something i think

to be in a locked room knowing something is coming and giving yourself the freedom to think otherwise is one of the bravest things you could do . belief and hope are really some of the strongest elements of the human experience and to downright state that its ok to have them despite having the knowledge that things arent going to be ok is something essential to learning what resistance truly is . there is never a world in which someone can take every single thing away from someone else . the self indulgent 10 minute long music videos we make in our minds will always be there . no one can take them away or decide their worth . its always ok to dream about anything . i dont know how long anything including me has left . but despite every thing i can still dream

Watched on Wednesday May 14, 2025.

the traffic clears once the desire for death is the main focus . we would be all better people if driving wasnt a thing . but it is . so the future is here and so sex gets closer to death . maybe it was always moments away from death . theres no real reasoning . its just going to happen so its better to brace

the streets are becoming gray and the facade of perfectness gives way to real and perfect and chrome unity . use your keys to open slits to learn who is who . bump into each other to mark indents where eyes should be and use a sharpie to draw a big hole for a mouth . we are close to something here i think

theres a silent apocalypse going on . i was terrified of highways the first time i met them when i was 12 . i only knew walkable yet inhabitable roads back in mexico but going to the united states taught me what it really was to be locked into a machine that doubled who you were . if your car was opened up then you surely would be too . we would be walking these roads but now our feet are tires . thank god there is still imperfectness here . we live with different flesh in comparison to before but with the same frame . and that frame needs to be bent . im sorry but it does need to be bent and scratched . it will happen out of nowhere . thats what makes it more exciting honestly . here it comes

it is like if u turned the song revolution into a movie in of the fact that revolution is lame as fuck but it does have ringo starr on the drums and it sounds incredible .

very much conflicted on the way most of this rocks yet a big part of it is somehow about Hippies Being A Little Too Violent . true love does win in the end though and i cant argue much with that tho . . . the romantic ideal of what a biopic should be in the way that the art itself kinda overwhelms what seems like a simplistic story told in a very Natural Lighting Kinda Way until it blasts you with color and a deeply loveable operatic structure to most of them . im sorry i love Literal Lyrics so much . . theres too much fear for such little life put into the movies this gets grouped along with . .

so joyful of being itself it bursts into song when it cant contain itself
so excited of being itself it goes any where it wants
so proud of being itself that the one thing not engulfed in the euphoric fire is the desire to tell the kids to sing their songs

it loves itself deeply . it hasnt been a while since i sat down in a movie theatre and saw a movie that was deeply excited of being itself ( love you 4ever nope (2022) ) . but its weird seeing what feels like a once in a life time miracle happen twice . maybe im not used to watching these in the big dark room . its a big complicated problem causing mess that prides itself in becoming more of a concert than a film by the end . of course its probably the most important thing ever

there is a real immortality to be found here on earth . a gorgeous and deeply woven tapestry filled with the experiences of so many incredible and thoughtful people . not ruled by any guidelines . allowed to follow all of the paths it needs to follow . bying all of space and time in the process . singing your song is the only way you can even glimpse at it . being in conjunction with inspiration and what will be inspired . of coursed i cried during this but there is something about the way i feel deeply emotional about the way this film fits into a canon and the way we will have it forever and the way that it was always inside the mind of someone in some point in time . incubating . its the kind of art that needed to be let out at one point or another . nothing but ion in display .

and with that ion comes a deeply respectable hatred of the betrayal that the status quo embodies here . a great unifying force that works as the ultimate temptation . to be smothered forever into a singular vision of the whole . shaped by the experience of a singular entity wanting to obtain a long lasting revenge and only that experience . its a comfort to know only a part of yourself will contribute to a vision someone else had long ago . to live in the houses they wanted . to be on the side being an Important Addition . there is no potential embarrassment involved and the cracks and stutters in your voice can be figured out so you can fit the vision better .

its beautiful to see something reject all of this and be as indulgent as possible . having 3 endings and having so many scenes that would be considered deeply unnecessary . dear god it has three sex scenes and several prolonged musical numbers . it wins via existing . the song has been sung and it will be sung for forever now .

Watched on Wednesday April 16, 2025.

the immovable object becomes the doorway between the century of suffering and the bright impossible future

couldnt breathe for a lot of this . felt like my wrist was being crushed because the person next to me was beginning to realize that the hope was paying off . unbelievable upward momentum representing the miracle that is the ending of an era . covered and permanently changed by sand and titanium but somehow humanity made it . theres something beautiful on spending so much money on stupid and impractical looking cars to make a movie that is so simply about the future finally being brighter

Watched on Friday March 28, 2025.

Watched on Monday March 24, 2025.

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an all encoming view of narrative and the ways it saves and withers every thing down . no matter how giant and terrifying and loud the power that scares all of us is . the real threat is little worthless men who want to embody it yet cannot . men who are worth billions who want to embody The Power Of Other yet fear the exclusion . someone who is excluded to the point of embodying both our greatest fears of the excluded and the terrifying power of the special .

fascist children stuck in adult bodies struggling to comprehend the idea of the inherently good power they believe in actually existing in some way and it not being present within them . there must be some sort of corruptible energy within this force of good . the world is too long and too complicated for simple good to exist . so in reality . it must be simple bad . the thing about conservatism is that it does boil down to believing in things in the binary . good and bad . but after the impenetrable wall of america was . well . torn down and blown to bits . there was no pure good left . just a pure bad that had to be extinguished . the ideals of the perfect man who embodies god fully left behind for ash covered revenge and an unrelenting drive to extinguish anything that is outside of the tainted safe space .

the united states government is run by private companies and superman is dead . yet there is still a beating heart in those of us that are motivated by something we thought was long buried . the film itself puts it into words that are better than what any one could ever muster . we must be better . we must believe . not in inherent good . but in people who do good . in the idea that we live in corrupted soil in which complicated and disgusting things capable of honesty grow . the reason as to why the private company is the most antagonistic force to humanity is that it stands for a hopelessness that will maintain a safe space built for the ones who only believe in vanquished evil . we have to believe in potential . we have to believe that it is not only present in those we exclude by considering them special . but in our deeply flawed corrupted selves . otherwise we are nothing but forces of revenge for an ideal of good that never truly existed .

if you seek his monument look around you

Watched on Monday March 17, 2025.

claustrophobia in priviledge . the fruits of injustice trapped in a house together trying to figure out how they can all deal with the reality that comes with their existence guaranteeing a suffering only seen in idealized illustrations and sound . when there is only pure cold ideology present within these safe blocks of concrete . the only thing that can guide us is ourselves . which isnt really the best thing a bunch of privileged french kids can do !

believes in revolution and inherent change . in so many other contexts i would detest the idea of making a film that warms of what happens when misinterpreting theory and never giving any other options . yet la chinoise finds itself not advocating for revolution but for making mistakes . self deprecation as a form of acknowledging the failures of the ones that have the most power and agency to create a change and to aspires to take greater leaps . there is something we can do . we just have to live more .

the biggest and most prosperous nation in the whole world is filling up some of its parts that the other parts dont need . most of the people who speak and are heard are from the ones that throw away obsolete objects . most of the people who arent heard live off those .

the scraps of culture and product infect those who have nothing with a desire to follow with them . these people are behind of course . the material of their houses antiquated . their shirts made a decade before being worn by them . expiration dates have already gone by for the residents of the parts of america we dont want to talk about . living off the constant cycle of regeneration will make that happen . places like these are a road map of what we will become . as the areas in which things are created are getting more exclusive . the trash cans in which the outdated go to die get bigger . swallowing up every t hing . the need to create more things creates the desire to forget even more .

so here we are . the walls are rotting and life is lived in a way that is meant to disgust most viewers . the reputation this film has as disturbing speaks for itself . yet the framework is not too different from places that are yet to rot like this . so every thing is present here . a slowly distorting mirror reflecting the images of mirrors yet to destroy . the apocalypse wont hit every thing all at once . it will be an infection present within us before we realize that the possibility of it being contagious is even considered .

Watched on Wednesday March 12, 2025.

the reminder of death's slow approach towards us is probably one of the least functional wake up calls that nature grants us . we know its coming . and the myth of the great man who makes a life out of themselves by doing incredible things motivates us . but we took it and used it as a reminder to focus on ourselves and our closest circle . to remind ourselves of the finite amount we are here rather than the infinity of the lives we could affect with our actions . it ignores priviledge and the amount of rebellion needed to make these changes and thus . we are lulled back into monotomy once again . when thinking about how we will obtain our next meal takes center stage after a small panic where we realize that theres a possibility of there not being a next meal . at any moment .

things dont get better for kanji . the time that was lost is lost and those 6 months do not make up for a lifetime . no matter the joys found within them . to be a person is to be involved . and to know that things do really go away forever . and that we will not be privileged enough to enjoy ourselves as much as our myths tell us to . despite that . is this nihilism really the answer ? we are here to be with others . and to be for us and for not only our loved ones . or our families . or to the individuals who surround us . but to whoever else . and thats the one thing we can cling on to after every thing . there is still time .

Watched on Saturday March 8, 2025.

Watched on Wednesday March 5, 2025.

Watched on Tuesday March 4, 2025.

a lot of memory is pure blackness with a repeating sound in the background . or a piece of art from which you will cut out the surrounding context to it fully . ill this movie without thinking about the bezels of my laptop surrounding it or the start of an LED light strip at the top left corner of my vision . sometimes a memory is what you think things looked outside of your view were . the reactions to a doing or the people inside a place that was locked off .

all of this makes things difficult when memory becomes the most important thing to hold on to . to explain why you cannot turn off the lights at night . when its needed to tie those ends together . it is the most important thing to the stories we have yet to hear and the ones that have informed us of the worst atrocities that have ever happened . the only ones that will think of the kids that suffer from learning about violence for the first times in the worst way possible will be those same kids . it is an unbearable curse to know that and an impossible task for those responsible of spreading the word .

Watched on Saturday March 1, 2025.

Watched on Friday February 28, 2025.

Watched on Thursday February 27, 2025.

the clock hits midnight and that hope is fading away because that promise of comfort is fading away because the work never ends . the hands in which we stand . from where we scream for any sort of attention because its getting cold and we are slowly dying . belong to creatures which hear something but will never acknowledge it . it hurts more when you . an individual . is lucky enough to get through . to obtain some sort of warmth . to know what it is like outside without a window blocking you from it . but you are small . and you will continue to be small . and the hand you stand on belongs to someone who will never see you as something other than a particle .

sex work highlights a lot of the horror that comes with the idea of work . the impossible to climb ladder made out of spikes that kills you in which people are born on top of so they can throw rocks at you is much more easier to perceive when you are so physically connected to thoseTthings that throw the rocks at u . the endless variables that come when you dont separate them and yourself through a long line of managers and bosses and checks and deposits illustrate why the Things at the top need them . the bodies they use need to be quiet . and they need to work well . or else there will be an accident which they will consider to be incredible luck . any sort of emotion ruins the whole thing . the acknowledgement of a person seeing a person will ruin it all . and thus we need those filters . which is why sex work is seen as one of the greatest sins by most people who could have the name Johnathan or Robert who talk about how onlyfans rots your soul .

seeing through that veil . knowing the world needs to be cold for its current system to keep killing the many and empowering the few . breaks every one on some level . but it leaves those who have to open themselves to connection even more devastated . what can we do when we find out luck isnt real and those connections that mattered to you can be as transactional as commerce ? sometimes its just good to cry after a long day at work .

endlessly conflicted on some of the statements here and how theyre said but the inherent goodness in wanting to tell a story in which the only way to make things better is to condemn tradition and to advance forward through true acceptance of a self that goes against those traditions warms my heart . with this in mind . it is fascinating how this also makes a good case as to how paradoxical the continued existence of institutions like the Vatican is . with their closed off walls and claustrophobic hallways with the blood of the innocent covering them by all sides . endless reminders of what traditionalism has brought us to an extent where even a radical shift cant even salvage it .

like most work that tries to talk about a change of the status quo . all it can do before becoming inaccessible to general audiences and the possibility of wide distribution is plant even more seeds for a possible future radicalization . denying nationalism and those who built the path that is cracking under our feet . while i do feel we are coming closer and closer to a reckoning in of enough seeds being planted . its good that this method of doing so has become common place enough to feel close to mundane . i wonder how long it couldve taken them to hire a mexican actor to play a mexican role since it apparently is the hardest thing any person can ever do . sisyphus weeps at the thought of those poor casting directors having to hire a mexican . how could they accomplish such an impossible task.

Watched on Sunday February 23, 2025.

there is no home in a world made following the blueprints of colonialism . budapest . america . israel . all places forever tainted by interpretation being made into what the people who place the flags there call reality .
cynical to a sort of detriment but theres a power to how it presents the hopelessness of being an artist that will be reinterpreted to have things that didnt matter to you be symbolic of your art .

laszlos buildings he made in his home of which he cries over there still being at least a little proof of them existing bulldozed by the need to make his pain a justification for his art . the idea of the ends justifying the means was created by those who kept thinking about the means . and how they could see those means make the shape of the ends . there are no new homes under the colonialism that made the abhorrent American dream real . there is no new land . only more things to be stolen and violently reinterpreted .

a dark cloud hangs over you as you realize that same isolation you feel around adults who have lived so much more than you is not leaving . you realize that it is transforming . that now that inherent neglect and lack of understanding that we all must go through is now turning into something far more dangerous . you are an adult now . and you werent given the protocol to know where to stand or what to be that every one else seems to have . so now in most situations you are stranded and alone . far away from those who understand you and an inherent stain into the set of rituals that have been marked as normalcy in the place you are in .

i guess every one learns their parents or their family arent perfect once they grow up but now more than ever i think the kids turning into adults are all going to have horror stories about the ways they thought their parents were talking about others in those insulting ways . when in actuality they were just talking about the future shapes their children were gonna take .

Watched on Wednesday February 19, 2025.

Watched on Tuesday February 18, 2025.

a building is a building and cement is cement yet the people who paint it with blood and paint or get dragged along it or fall onto it can make it a place where history and the grotesque and beautiful acts that occur within it can happen . and that is worth every thing you think you can give it .

like the flying bodies in which pain and love and and blades are inserted put to the screen . the walled city is worth something . to some people every thing . even if the past and the future are fighting to destroy it . to wage the wars of the past on unassuming victims of circumstance . to the eventual collapse of every thing under these seemingly supernatural unbeatable forces . these days mean something . we can do seemingly impossible things once we accept these temporary meanings . a place is made of people and people are made of people and places they rely on .

surprisingly essential text on 2016 and the years hence . big news ! the arbitrary rules have gotten more arbitrary and more nonsensical . the comforts of the people who own the hands that strangle us whenever we dont get to satisfy them have gotten highly specific and increasingly slimy .

yet there is no proclamation of what the other is or what common sense is from anyone other than the ones who become inhuman . grease covered statues (thanks alison) slowly crafting and molding a world that will accept them unless death is brought upon them . in a movie where men shit themselves and cover themselves in grease the only proclamation of disgust here is towards a woman who fakes her orgasms . its easy to become ur dad rather than becoming a person

Watched on Saturday February 15, 2025.

an atrocity exhibition meant to say good bye to the people this world let down . sacrificing every thing and dispersing the mirage of morals behind to bring back the ones who will end all of this .

of course . to end some thing is to begin some thing . and it will be done right if we defy the expectations set by what ever we are leaving behind . it doesnt matter how idealistic it is . there is always an optimism to be found in the destruction of some thing . another step to be taken . love that was not there miraculously brought into this new thing made with the bits from the old thing . an emotionally complicated optimism born out of a morally depraved list of awful tasks is the most beautiful and perfect and incredible and great way to end what we are assured is just a chapter in a story that im sure will go on forever . as every thing else does

the kudo method works lets start kicking and hitting every thing with all our might ! defy destiny !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Watched on Wednesday February 12, 2025.

Watched on Tuesday February 11, 2025.

beautifully embarassing art is necessary and i wish it was as loved as art that at times restricts itself

despite the wish fulfillment being the main center point ( that wolf-man hybrid will save you queens i promise ) . there is still so much to be taken in the ways the wachowskis analyze capital here . three angles with all the same results . no one with money is actually a morally correct person !

heroism takes shape in someone who thinks beyond herself and even her own family and is basically a completely normal person despite of that . a fascinating response to the matrix by having the chosen one not have any thing inherently different to them . despite being told so many times how special they are . this inherently outstanding quality is birthright . which is how it actually works ! its worthless and has no use . our main character owns the earth through how special she is and denies the inherent grandness or that title due to how worthless the inherent nature of it is to her . there is nothing inherent to anyone that makes them better than any one except who they came out of . therefore . in a perfect world in which we get with our stoic wolf-person hybrids . the only path is to reject it

by centering the self and distancing ourselves from the simple observations we get by making art about someone who isnt us . better man slowly absolves itself from the countless narratives about fame that narratives usually like to gift us . when we look at someones successes and failures we kinda just focus on those . several biopics better man takes after have scenes dedicated to the writing of the song that made the subject popular . or the comeback . or the failure . theres something nice about the way the only time we see a recording booth here is during a moment that speaks to the deep embarrassment that haunts robbie every waking moment of his life up to that point .

no justification . no moment of glory . no live aid or television special is free without the ghosts of the people hes betraying . for you to get better you need to deny every thing in your part of self harm . total absolution . the only moments of peace and fufillment found within worthwhile relationships being formed rather than things we can just ire from afar . robbie williams is not a famous person worldwide . there is no scene where he just comes up with rock dj . rather it being framed as an (incredibly gorgeous !) moment of carelessness representative of the short lived joy fame presented to him during his youth .

in the same way stories about tragedies during war have been glamorized and commercialized to the point of being expected entertainment . we all have been conditioned to think of fame as a fleeting gift . cinematic renditions of our stars . amy . selena . whitney . freddy . michael . fucking . nina god have u seen zoe saldana in that god damn . my god!!!! anyways . they predicate on the fact that the innate gift these people had was wasted . either by their evil manager or by their own careless decisions because thats what the cost of flying high is . the temporal nature of these stories complete that cynical escapism in which glory and death dance together while we all spectate . iring their inhuman highs and thanking god we didnt go through their irredeemable lows . its . borderline a miracle that we get the chance to have one of these be about how we can reach that potential and achieve our impossible dreams while facing ourselves . self fulfillment as an act against conventional narrative . being allowed to look at a person as a person rather than a temporary statue that has already been destroyed feels nice .

this movie was directed by a gay furry and i mean that not in the superficial way . i know this shit . im onto you.

Watched on Sunday February 9, 2025.

This review may contain spoilers.

a movie plagued with dialogue only meant to explain the overwhelming situations the characters are trusted into due to their reliance on a need for these set pieces to be implemented into a believable setting . absolutely not a new thing for nolan to do . inherently ridiculous concepts given the aesthetic of something that could exist within our world . following modern design principles . thinking of The Machine in Tenet or . The Machine in Inception . or . the batmobile being a tank . these planets in which the increasingly hopeless quest based on a lie in which these incredible things happen are explained and seen as possibilities within the parameters the movie has set for us . i do not mind this aspect of nolans style ! . i think this rationalization helps bring more gravity to the narratives in which these elements are involved . however . there is always a sense of cynicism involved . as if the world within these movies has already been figured out . every stake clearly defined .

so when interstellar . on its last act decides to say that love is the only thing that matters . the solution to the problems which we thought would be fixed by suicidal branches of the government looking forward to creating a new world in which the population is decided by them . when it says that despite all the complicated procedures and worries about time and fuel and gravitational . love is the one thing that can actually save humanity . and that we dont even know any of this works . and probably will never know . it matters . and it feels bigger than anything that has ever been made .

i couldnt really stop sobbing for most of the film but there is something that really really breaks me about how . despite all the awful objectivity of the situation shown within the film . hours spent slowly sinking into the sense that progress means abandoning those who arent worthy and that even then . despite the overwhelming feeling that we just dont belong in whatever will be after we are gone . hope is found within the literal darkest corner of the universe . for a reason that is so intangible and alien and unrecognizable to the point were the only word that fits is love . theres no other explanation . even alone we have all those ghosts that are there as reminders we are here . we have the future pushing us forward . there is something so god damn stupid about the dialogue inside the black hole . the objectively incorrect line that says the world will be saved . the argument about what the space is and who made it that leads to no final conclusion . the manic declarations of all of it being actually mandated by something as scientifically unidentifiable as love . its kinda like the most perfect thing ive witnessed in a cinema if u think about it . its like if the air itself just started softly around you when you needed to be held the most . none of it makes sense . but things can just happen . if you keep love involved it will be alright .

the world will never be the same

• Kiki's Delivery Service
• Adventure Time

  As in . the show . would be kinda weird if it was just this like 9 minute pilot

• Speed Racer
• I Saw the TV Glow
• Nope
• Everything Everywhere All at Once
• Twin Peaks: The Return
• Adventure Time: Stakes
• The Matrix Reloaded
• Tenet

...plus 70 more. View the full list on Letterboxd.

list of things i will problably make art studies of
most animated stuff isnt incluided because it would be like 3/4ths of the list ill add it if its really really remarkable and or unique tho

tv shows because there isnt any good letterboxd type site for tv shows yet:

joe pera talks with you
twin peaks specifically the return
russian doll
better call sauL
severance
the bear
succession

• Dawn of the Dead
• Speed Racer
• Night of the Living Dead
• Malignant
• Twin Peaks
• The Straight Story
• Inland Empire
• Nacho Libre
• The Matrix Resurrections
• The Card Counter

...plus 70 more. View the full list on Letterboxd.

marcy couldnt get up for about an hour after she watched i saw the tv glow (2024)

1. I Saw the TV Glow
2. Drive-Away Dolls
3. Queer
4. Nickel Boys
5. Memoir of a Snail
6. Madame Web
7. A Different Man
8. The Substance
9. Good One
10. Trap

...plus 43 more. View the full list on Letterboxd.

martin scorcese said "the clouds lifted on the future of cinema" after watching Saw X (2023)

1. Priscilla
2. Killers of the Flower Moon
3. The Boy and the Heron
4. Anatomy of a Fall
5. The Iron Claw
6. Nimona
7. Godzilla Minus One
8. Poor Things
9. The Curse
10. Oppenheimer

...plus 45 more. View the full list on Letterboxd.

Martin "Movie's Man's" Scorcese

• Killers of the Flower Moon
• The Irishman
• After Hours
• GoodFellas
• Bringing Out the Dead
• The King of Comedy
• The Departed
• Taxi Driver
• Shutter Island

movies made by the antichrist about laying down and letting the soil do its thing .

these movies range from worst of all time to really good i thibk .

• Saving Private Ryan
• Don't Look Up
• Crash
• Tropic Thunder
• Requiem for a Dream
• Dashcam
• Skinamarink
• The Outwaters
• Beau Is Afraid
• The Flash

...plus 11 more. View the full list on Letterboxd.

comment where you think croods 2 places on this ranking and if you get it right ill vouch for u in any job you want

1. Kung Fu Panda 3
2. Kung Fu Panda 2
3. The Prince of Egypt
4. Kung Fu Panda
5. Spirit: Stallion of the Cimarron
6. Chicken Run
7. Shrek
8. How to Train Your Dragon
9. Trolls Band Together
10. Trolls World Tour

...plus 39 more. View the full list on Letterboxd.

have you considered the idea that you arent normal

• Glass
• The Visit
• Lady in the Water
• Signs
• Trap
• Unbreakable
• Knock at the Cabin
• The Sixth Sense
• Split
• Old

...plus 3 more. View the full list on Letterboxd.

not the death of cinema really . come on . we are gonna be fine

• Ant-Man
• Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2
• Spider-Man: Homecoming
• Iron Man 3
• Black Panther
• Guardians of the Galaxy
• Doctor Strange
• Captain America: The First Avenger
• Avengers: Infinity War
• Thor: Ragnarok

...plus 9 more. View the full list on Letterboxd.

more than a woman or a man

list of rare movies that Get It . or at least come close to getting the experience of being kicked out of /excluded from/leaving/simply not being part of/rejecting the binary

• Nimona
• Hedwig and the Angry Inch
• The Last Unicorn
• Everything Everywhere All at Once
• The Matrix

movies.com. that ahould be the nameof this fucking website. i hate you all.

1. Nope
2. The Fabelmans
3. Everything Everywhere All at Once
4. Crimes of the Future
5. The Batman
6. Decision to Leave
7. Joyland
8. Glass Onion
9. TÁR
10. Guillermo del Toro's Pinocchio

...plus 52 more. View the full list on Letterboxd.

when i was a kid. sometimes i thought . what if there was an inmortal person around us . not someone who was born thousand of thousands of years ago or someone whos been here before the universe existed . just someone that will mysteriously not die until . naturally . people forget they didnt have the ability to die . i feel like kevin smith has left us clues towards who this person is within his films . i had a dream about it actually . that is exactly why i am ranking them . i need to find out . and i need to meet them and comfort them for the rough lifetime ahead of them .

1. Red State
2. Jay and Silent Bob Reboot
3. Jersey Girl
4. Dogma
5. Zack and Miri Make a Porno
6. Chasing Amy
7. Yoga Hosers
8. Tusk
9. Clerks III
10. Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back

...plus 4 more. View the full list on Letterboxd.

• A.I. Artificial Intelligence
• Minority Report
• The Fabelmans
• Jaws
• West Side Story
• Jurassic Park
• Raiders of the Lost Ark
• Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
• Catch Me If You Can
• Schindler's List

...plus 6 more. View the full list on Letterboxd.

horrific ween ranSAW FRANCHISE RANKING

• Phantom of the Paradise
• Saw II
• Tremors
• A Bucket of Blood
• Saw X
• Saw VI
• Saw III
• The Blackening
• Saw
• Little Shop of Horrors

...plus 8 more. View the full list on Letterboxd.

lets watch movies now

• Drive My Car
• C'mon C'mon
• Malignant
• The Matrix Resurrections
• Annette
• We're All Going to the World's Fair
• Venom: Let There Be Carnage
• The French Dispatch
• Licorice Pizza
• The Card Counter

...plus 35 more. View the full list on Letterboxd.

what if there was a guy who absolutely ruined superhero movies forever but also made tenet

1. Oppenheimer
2. Interstellar
3. Tenet
4. Inception
5. The Prestige
6. Memento
7. Insomnia
8. Dunkirk
9. The Dark Knight
10. The Dark Knight Rises

...plus 1 more. View the full list on Letterboxd.

movies are cancelled, invisible man lives

• Tenet
• Dick Johnson Is Dead
• Da 5 Bloods
• Judas and the Black Messiah
• Minari
• Spree
• The Empty Man
• I'm Thinking of Ending Things
• Bad Genius: The Series
• The Invisible Man

...plus 6 more. View the full list on Letterboxd.

ranking of all the 2018 films i've watched

1. Unfriended: Dark Web
2. Mission: Impossible – Fallout
3. Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse
4. The Favourite
5. Hereditary
6. Roma
7. Paddington 2
8. Climax
9. Shoplifters
10. Under the Silver Lake

...plus 33 more. View the full list on Letterboxd.

??????? . confusion . terror . hatred . many emotioms felt . no conclusions given.....

this list isnt necessarily a way to highlight movie i think are bad . if anything i enjoyed most of these in one way or another i literally just couldnt pin down a funny star rating for them

• Dashcam
• Space Jam: A New Legacy
• Crank: High Voltage
• Murder Death Koreatown
• The Hateful Eight
• Crank
• The Happening
• I May Destroy You
• Beau Is Afraid

a hopeless endeavor

ratings can be outdated

progress (for me):
2020s: 44/154
2010s: 59/580
2000s: 38/540
1990s: 18/536
1980s: 9/491
1970s: 7/483
1960s: 1/560
1950s: 4/551
1940s: 1/742
1930s: 0/390
1920s: 0/60

1. Do the Right Thing
2. The Matrix
3. Drive My Car
4. Spirited Away
5. Dog Day Afternoon
6. Mulholland Drive
7. A.I. Artificial Intelligence
8. Terminator 2: Judgment Day
9. Alien
10. There Will Be Blood

...plus 171 more. View the full list on Letterboxd.

itso ctober

1. Twin Peaks: The Return
2. Day of the Dead
3. Twin Peaks: Fire Walk with Me
4. The Blair Witch Project
5. Lake Mungo
6. Alien
7. Unfriended: Dark Web
8. Videodrome
9. In the Mouth of Madness
10. Twin Peaks

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1. The Lighthouse
2. Uncut Gems
3. Parasite
4. Us
5. Marriage Story
6. Portrait of a Lady on Fire
7. The Irishman
8. Knives Out
9. Ad Astra
10. Greener Grass

...plus 47 more. View the full list on Letterboxd.