Almost makes good on how much Guadagnino fucked me up with cmbyn.

crying tears and snot into my FFP2 mask on the packed train pt. 2

This threw me right back into being an akward queer teenager, having crushes on my straight friends, kinda toxic entangled friendships, first kiss with a girl with brightly coloured hair, it captures it all so well.

Karmen was a very interesting character, confident, self assured and charismatic. Just wish the lesbian storyline was explored a bit more.

This gives off the vibe of people who say of themselves they're ~hOnEst~ to hide the fact they're just mean and unempathetic.

Very lesbian of Alucarda to profess her undying love to a girl she just met the same day.

Since I couldn't dress as a a man, I dressed as a nun

Pretty on the outside...but like a fruit the bugs have eaten from within.

When I first saw this around 2014 this was obviously very much my thing™ and it still absolutely slaps.

This time around I especially noticed the nods to the big japanese masters of physical and psychological deformation and transformation, Shuji Terayama and Hiroshi Teshigahara. But in the end this really is the blueprint for every hyper femme neon aesthetics. It revels in its artificiality, everything is exterior, everything surface, the rotting underside of the skin imprinting on everything around it.

Also...using Jun Togawas 'Mushi No Onna' (Insect Woman)...ugh her mind...

Breathtakingly beautiful.

Tired: Rachel Weisz spitting into Rachel McAddams mouth.

Wired: Noémie Merlant gently spitting water into Adèle Haenel's mouth during a witches flying creme trip.

Ragin' homosexuals

We all need a wife to gently blow in our eyes.